first glimpse of baby

We had a Dr. visit this morning. I did not get to do a sonogram, though. We will do one in September. I will be 21 weeks when I do one, so this is new to me. My Dr. in Lubbock did one every visit, so we got to know what sex and all that from the earliest we could tell.

The Dr. was could not get a heart beat on the doppler thing. It was scary because I was by myself and she is telling me she cannot find a heartbeat. There went my heartbeat with the words. She had this little portable ultrasound machine. She picked up a picture of the baby quickly and the heart was beating advidly. I was so relieved. Now my heart was beating again. This machine was too little to see details, but I did get to see the baby! It just seems to make everything official and then all those emotions start coming out. Anyways, the baby was moving wildly throughout the whole ultrasound. That is why she could not hear the heart because the baby was moving too much and too fast! Now my worries really set in. I have two crazy monkeys already, now I have one learning from them from in the womb. I'll have my work cut out for me. I am more excited and can start feeling some heavy movements now, so today has been a good baby day. Then reality sinks in when Kirk comes home at 4:30 and the kids are watching tv and mom is knocked out on the couch. Yep, back to normal for now.....